What if it all works out? This question rang through my head after today’s afternoon walk. I’ve been spiraling lately and creating worst case scenarios for some recent challenges. Worrying myself about what hasn’t happened. I decided to center myself this weekend through movement, deep breathes and sunshine. It really helped to clear my mind and I stumbled across a list of questions on Substack that inspired me:
What if it all works out in my favor?
What if I were already ready?
What if I already have everything I need to handle what’s coming to me?
What if this experience is leading me to something great?
What if this is the part of the story where I’m okay?
The list was much longer but these few questions resonated and helped me face my current worries. It also reminded me of the final episode of the hit HBO show Insecure titled "Everything Gonna Be, Okay?!" where the main character Issa Dee is at the crossroads of a few decisions and comes to understand that things eventually work themselves out. What’s the best decision I can make for myself at this very moment?
This week I attended an author event for a newly released book called Undiplomatic that reminded me that my 30s are just the beginning and having confidence, betting on myself, and never giving up are the keys. Anything I want is possible and I belong in every space I find myself. Impostor syndrome be damned. The author Deesha spoke a good, inspiring word and reminded me that hard work and little bit of luck and timing go a long way. You are the secret sauce. No one in the world has your story.
On Friday, I laughed my face off at Trevor Noah’s Off the Record tour show in D.C. Trevor is a brilliant, thoughtful storyteller and a clever, witty comedian. He genuinely looked like he was having a good time on stage re-enacting interactions with airline gate agents and experiences in India. His jokes about Biden and Tr—p and Uganda did not land for me and felt a bit dragged out. All in all - I’m a Trevor fan and it was a lovely show! November couldn’t get here faster so we can move on from the presidential elections.
April was a SOLID month. Not sure how it is almost over. What am I into these days?
The I Said What I Said podcast continues to be a fave listen of mine while working out. The infertility episode with Kunbi was an eye-opener as to why talking about women’s health is so important to destigmatize taboo topics.
I enjoy watching talk shows and this week the Tamron Hall show did an episode called “The Burden of 30” and brought on psychotherapist Satya Doyle Byock to talk about navigating adulthood. She wrote a book called Quarterlife and it’s been such a timely read for me.
This jam has been on replay lately to motivate and hype myself up to keep going. Win. Win. Win. Win.
I can’t believe the month is over already and it’s gonna be MAY (JT’s voice). Have a beautiful week friends!
X Chidi Love